It’s normal to be sentimental about your favorite toy that you had growing up, and the amount of adults who keep their stuffed animals long after they grow up is more common than many might think. 

As a result, it’s inevitable that some are going to end up worse for wear. However, rarely do they get into the state of @darci.duxbury’s beloved Peter Rabbit, who she filmed herself washing for what looked like the first time in a lifetime.

While she was pleased enough with the result to post it to TikTok, commenters were horrified by its appearance, especially when she revealed what the toy had originally looked like. Perhaps it’s best not to probe too deeply into what she does with that thing every night.